I am definely not a good blogger

I haven't write something on my blog for I don't know how long!
Once I heard someone saying: 'If you have nothing nice to say, don't say anything at all.'
This is where I find myself now. I study, I work, pay my bills, buy my food, and all my money is gone every month after the same things... Ain't able to do much stuff with my boyfriend cuz we are always trying to save money... he is also paying his own studies, and food, and rent, plus a car...

Hopefully the storm will pass and I'll have something nice to write about.

Today I got a lovely postcard from my dear friend that is in Thailand. I can't describe how much I miss her. I look forward the day we meet again...

Also this week another friend send me an e-mail, she told me she is bipolar... when we met in Dublin I helped her how I could but now she is back in her hometown and when to a shrink... now I know why my help and the help of other friends was never enough. I feel sad but I know how strong she is and believe she is going to be fine.

Why life has to be so hard on some of us???

After a long time without writing, again! I just better admited... Im not that into internet, blogs, twitter, etc. But I Sign In anyway, cuz is just a easy way of puting out there what is in my mind and is not just a paper with my handwriting around my room... people actualy can read it, and maybe some people out there feel the same way or relate to my feelings, thoughts, ideas... well, you know where this is going... I also changed the name of my blog, cuz the name before was bothering me, I just didn't like it, there was something wrong with that name, from the beging... and this new name is what I have been doing here, I have been writing my thoughts, some stuff that might become a good song...

As for my life: I keep teaching, still doing my music classes(theory and singing), I got in a choral(pretty much the best choral of my state =), my brothers are fine too, I have a boyfriend that's good to me... what else could I want...? I have health, a job, family, friends, love and music! Life is just perfect right now and I feel bless!!!

Once again without writing for a while, I haven't been reading too... Lately Im so busy teaching, grading, watching classes that I actually forgot the most important thing I should be doing, reading! One of my closes friends told me I should read, even if just one page a day, so Im reading twenty...

I just started reading Fausto's História Concisa Do Brasil, translation would be something like, The Solid History Of Brazil. It's like academic reading but I found very interesting, and I got myself thinking I knew a bit about my own history and I don't know anything... there's so much to learn and so much to be discovered, I often go back to the pages I've already read to make sure I haven't missed any word.

I will try to write more as Im catching up on my reading.

People are people

We live for our own

Live as you think

Not by what you been told

Don't listen to a work you heard

Do not listen to a work they say

Justin Nokuza

Life

Almost a month since my last post, I didn't realize.

Sometimes I don't even know what to write.

I don't see myself as a interesting person.

I live a simple life. For some might be a boring life.

But I like it. It's small. It's simple. And it's mine.

She's Gone

My first meal came from her breast
My first tear was on her chest
My first laugh was on her lap
My first word was about her

She's gone
She took part of me
But I'll keep her alive
If I live my life right

I'll never forgive myself
For the times I made you cry
I'll always miss your company
In every car that I drive

I don't want to forget
The sound of your voice
The smell of your skin
The way you touch me

My best friend
My fathers lover
Not just a woman
This was my mother